I’ve been reading through the Gospels and really meditating on its words. I feel like I am trying to read what God is writing and it is really changing my outlook. I’ve shed plenty tears and have been anxious about my everyday life. God’s lesson to me recently has been, “don’t worry about that.”
If you haven’t read the New Testament before. The first four books, Matthew, Mark, John, and Luke tell the story of Jesus. Specifically, Matthew, Mark, and Luke retell the same stories in slightly different variations about Jesus’ life. One of the gems that I have been meditating on have been Luke 10 and its corresponding parallels in the other Gospels. Here, Jesus assembles His disciples and sends them out into the world.
Jesus tells them to travel light, don’t loiter, enter a home with peace, if you are denied to not impose yourself, eat what you are given without complaint, and focus on “being a neighbor”. I can go on for days about the messages Jesus preaches but one of the constant messages is that you will have what you need to accomplish what’s needed to be accomplished.
This is a hard part for me. Trying not to worry about how my needs are going to be met or what is in the future for me. I’ve been really struggling with where I am going to end up at after graduation but God has been consistently reminding me that it doesn’t matter. As long as I am open to doing his work, He’s going to give me what I need. It may be humble but it all rests on what I value most.
“The place where your treasure is, is the place you will most want to be, and end up being.” – Luke 12:34
What do I value most? Do I value the financial benefits of the world or do I value the Godly rewards? Where does my heart truly lie? It took me a long time to stop fighting myself but I think the path God has laid out in front of me is definitely more alternative than I even guessed years or even months ago.
I originally was dead set on becoming a doctor. Then I decided on getting into governmental work. I’ve been looking into getting my Ph.D, consulting, and so many other things in life. While I am sure that I will become Dr. Spann one day (that felt amazing to write), I realized that God still has more surprises in store.
I am considering working for a non-profit for a while. It’s popped up numerous times in conversation but I was deterred by the overworked and underpaid notion. I have colossal student loans looming over my head but God is telling me not to worry about that.
“And do not seek what you are to eat and what you are to drink, nor be worried. For all the nations of the world seek after these things, and your Father knows that you need them. Instead, seek his kingdom, and these things will be added to you.” – Luke 12:29-31
I saw this when I was looking for a summer job and God supplied me with two. When I thought I couldn’t survive God has given me more than enough. I am not expecting a huge paycheck anymore, but trusting in the fact that he will supply my needs. I am ready to go into the world and try to do good. I know it’s difficult to take a risk, but my reward is not here, it’s in heaven. I know where I want to end up.
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Anybody out there work for Nonprofits? Any advice and information about that lifestyle. I’m curious to know more. Let me know in the comments below.